Cycle Day 3 – Start Clomid

I made my appointment early in the morning so I wouldn’t miss work. 7:15 to be exact. My alarm went off, the puppy started crying and I knew I couldn’t hit snooze. Did my morning routine and then headed out. As I’m driving I’m realizing that I didn’t need to make it for another location but in my confusion I did. It took me about a half an hour to get to this other location and they saw me right away, despite me being about 20 minutes early.

They drew blood to do a mandatory check to make sure I’m not pregnant. Then I was off to the private room for the ultrasound. My right ovary was hiding so the doctor had to push it around for the ultrasound to show up.

He said all looks good so unofficially he thinks we’ll be able to move forward with this rest of this process. If there had been large cysts, they would have postponed it until the next cycle.

I went home at lunch to let my puppy out and as I was leaving a UPS truck pulled up. I just knew it was for my package. I took it inside, opened it up and put the item that needs to be kept cool in the fridge. I headed back to work.

I received a text from my pharmacy letting me know that the fertility pills (Clomid) are ready for pick-up. On my way home I picked it up and continued home.

Around 8pm I took my first two pills of Clomid so if there were any side effects that I would hopefully sleep through most of them.

This all is getting way to real. I’m anxious, excited, nervous, scared, and hopeful. I think most of my fear is finding out this doesn’t work either. Then what do I do? Go back to the adoption road? But now my savings is almost gone. It’s so hard to know the best path to take but I’m not giving up.

 

Follow-Up with my Doctor

So this is the first big day…I get to hear the results of all my tests and find out what the game plan is going to be.

She tells me that my tests are very typical of a 38 year old. Some blood work numbers were within reason and some were borderline. She also said that I have a low egg reserve which means that I could possibly go into early menopause. But there are no studies to indicate this, it’s just her prediction.

The game plan is to try Intrauterine Insemination (IUI).

She gave me a visual of three different methods of approach:

  1. Casual – This would include fertility pills + trigger shot
  2. Moderate – This would include fertility pills + fertility injection + trigger shot
  3. Aggressive – In Vitro Fertilization (IVF)

She recommended the Moderate method but if I wasn’t comfortable with that, we can do the Casual method. I said let’s go for the Moderate!

What does that mean? Well, I will take fertility pills for five days, which will help produce eggs, then I will give myself a fertility injection, which will also help produce eggs. The trigger shot is done to precisely predict when I will ovulate. Then the insemination!

So the meds have been ordered and should arrive June 25th, 2013. Some have to be refrigerated and the others can remain at room temperature.

My next action item is to call the office when I am on cycle day (CD) 1. This will begin the process.

 

Initial Doctor’s Visit

I just got back from my initial visit with my new fertility doctor. She gave me the good and bad news but all very realistic and understandable. She said with my age, that the chances of me getting pregnant are slim but that it can happen. I’m not ancient, mind you. I’m 38. Yes, in pregnancy life that is older than they’d like. But not impossible.

She explained the tests that I would need to get done.

  • Vaginal ultrasound
  • Blood work (two different ones)
  • HSG
  • Genetics test (optional)

We scheduled the ultrasound for the very next morning, May 1st, 2013 for them to do whatever. I think they just wanted to check out the equipment. But whatever they were looking for, came back fine.

I have my blood work scheduled for Thursday, May 2nd, 2013.

New Thoughts

Since my adoption process was placed on hold, my heart took a while to mend itself. I was filled with mixed emotions and found myself frustrated with what they said. It was nothing about me having an unfit home, or that I’d be an unfit mother. It was more along the lines of finances. But even my finances weren’t awful and friends I spoke too said that is enough to raise a child.

So I got to thinking….

Could I have my own baby?

Before adoption, I had that thought presented to me, but really felt in my heart that adoption was what I was supposed to do. But never went down this other path to see if it is even possible – at my age.

I began researching and found a place that could run some tests. I called and the appointment is set up for April 30th, 2013.