Woke up and rolled over, feeling some AF-like cramps and some more lower back pain. Nothing else though. It’s funny that my normal morning routine now involves peeing on a stick, but it does. This morning was another negative. Most of today felt pretty normal. Very little cramps or if they were there, they didn’t last long.
I’m extra weepy today only because I’ve been trying to figure out when is an appropriate time to put my cat down. He’s 17 years old and I’ve had him since he was six weeks old – he could fit in my hand. For the last few years he’s been sick: kidney disease and hyperthyroidism. The vet and I have tried many different foods, medication, and natural remedies that either made him throw up more or he just wouldn’t eat. I told the vet NO MORE! The vet fought me on this but he wasn’t happy throwing up every single time he ate this terrible food. We tried medication that also made him sick and trying to get his thyroid balanced took many blood work appointments and adjusting of his meds. We tried for at least two years. The last year he was doing much better. Eating normal, peeing somewhat normal…until recently.
The last month or so he has been throwing up more and he is peeing a half a gallon each time. And it’s a thicker consistency which makes you need a dirt shovel to scoop it out. I got to thinking that maybe it’s time to put him down while he’s still somewhat happy instead of either coming home to find that he died alone and maybe in some pain. I’ve heard and read that once kidney failure happens, it’s fast. I don’t want him to be alone.
And of course now I’m crying again…ugh!
Anyway, back to the topic at hand…I went to the bathroom tonight and I think there was the tiniest hint of red in my pantyliner (sorry, TMI), so I’m not sure if I should be worried or if that’s a good thing. I’ve read both ways.
Six more days until my beta. Come on Monday!