Yesterday, Wednesday Oct 10th, I submitted my agency #1 application along with the payment which officially begins the adoption process. After I got off the phone, I had a wave of all kinds of emotions….excitement, fear, worry, anxiousness…just to name a few. This process, from what I’ve read from other bloggers, can be difficult for two parents so the fact that I am a single parent, makes this all very emotional for just one person. I’m the only one that will be carrying the stress of the entire process…but I know in the end, it will all be worth it. I will have a son or daughter and that is worth all of this times ten.
As I am telling more and more people, everyone has said “why not this, or why not do that”. Trust me when I say that I have researched every option available for me. Being single put many limits on what I can do and where I can adopt from. The Ethiopian program is a great program and there are millions of kids that need a good home. I feel that if I got pregnant through a sperm bank or getting knocked up that I am being selfish. I don’t need to birth a child to be a mother to a child. There are so many children in the world that are looking for a good and loving home. I can provide that. I have also thought about the child when they grow up and the talks we would have if they were from a sperm bank or adopted. Answering those difficult questions and in my mind, explaining why I went to a sperm bank is not a conversation I really want to have. With adoption, since I would be getting a 4-7 year old, they will already have an understanding about that. Maybe I am just all wrong in my thinking but it’s just the way it is.
Anyone who reads this, please pray for me getting through this process with success!